Bet ya thought I would never blog again huh?

Well sorry to disappoint you but I am gonna try to get back into the grove of things. I can promise one thing though, this isnt always going to be pretty. There will be somedays you will wonder if I should be put in a padded room, there will probably be times that i make you lol, other times you might cry. But if i cant share the bad then i am depriving you a glimpse into our lives which is what i made this for. So know I am crazy, but i do pick myself back up eventually. so now time for a recap of what i have let you all miss.

We had an awesome start to our summer. Probably to awesome and after it I felt empty and depressed. While we were traveling and visiting, our family enjoyed each other, and I know what you are thinking...yes we do enjoy each other, but this was a new and different level of enjoyment. We the parents could relax, let the older two kids run and play and be free. Something they LOVED and the parents LOVED. We cant do that on base. Too many gossips, too many people looking down on you, too many busy bodies who have nothing better to do then try to ruin your life. You have your own house and backyard, but its never your own and you can never let your guard down. SO coming home was horrible. It threw me in a depression and I sure it did the same for the kids. Back to the up tight, must be on your guard at all time parents. Back to no fun, careless, free lifestyle for the kids. So here I have sat in this depression suffering for my children and what life on base is depriving them of. But I have come out of my depression and they have opened a cool new park not too far away that we are loving spending time at. The kids get to ride their new scooters down there and we have picnics and play for hours.

I guess another reason I have been avoiding this is I knew that I would have to deal with some tough issues and questions I didnt want to answer. Until a week ago Kaden had not been in preschool. I know I was supposed to do it, last year when we did the iep, then I was going to do it when school started back up, and I went to do it and he needed a tb test and we were always going to do it tomorrow and tomorrow turned into next week, then a month and so on. I dont see a reason in making excuses. I wasnt ready for him to go to school, I am still not ready. Its not fair, he shouldnt be at school, I should be able to have him home with me until he is 5 like the other kids. I hate that his school is so far away and he is gone so long. I hate missing out on his life. It hurts me so much to have him gone. I spend all day worrying and missing him. BUT on the bright side, he is doing AWESOME and is picking things up so quickly. It really makes me wish I had done it sooner. But I cant change it all I can do is keep moving forward and I can see the changes in him already and it makes my heart soar. Now if I could just get his bus situation figure out so Vernon didnt beat him home life would be great. AND WE WILL GET IT FIXED. Vernon has been an amazing help through this, he has gone out of his comfort zone and helped make phone calls. Dealt with all of my calls and crying and stood by me through it all. He truly is my rock, my support, my best friend and I dont tell him enough how amazing he is.

Now to catch you up month by month, sorry if none of the above made sense, lol I am all over the place and slightly crazy. Sorry about that :) and sorry for not having many pictures. I will work on that, maybe I will go buy myself the camera I have been drooling over for over a year, to make me want to photograph every second of our lives, ok maybe not that much, but at least enough to keep you up to dat on the kiddos growth and changes and important moments in their lives.

July- We had a bbq for the 4th and sat across the street and enjoyed the fire works. We are really lucky and can see 3 sets of fireworks from across the street with out all the noise. Danica also turned 7. I can not believe how fast she is growing up. She is an amazing big sister, such a little mama. She is always the first one to jump up, step in and help out with anything I need. I am truly blessed to have her in my life.

Aug- was hot hot hot, so we spent a lot of time inside inside inside! We did spend a bit of time with our friends from across the street. They were nice and would invite us over when they would pull out their slip and slide or pool. We miss you Groff family!

Sept- The big kids started school again. JD is in the 3rd grade and doing awesome. He cursive is amazing. I always worried about his hand writing, seems to take after me, and has horrible hand writing, but his cursive is amazing. Now if we could get him to do his homework consistantly and in a timely manner all would be right in the world. :) Danica is in second grade and is continually suprising me with her knowledge and wits. She loves homework, so much she begs me to allow her to do JD's for him. I have never met a kid with such a thirst for knowledge.

October- Kaden turned 4!!!! Words cant begin to discribe the love I have for this child. Our bond is so deep. I am always told I am so lucky I can hug, kiss, and love on this child, I guess its not the norm for kids with autism. We are truly blessed to have him in our family. EVERYONE watches out for our moe moe. (named by Dalton) This year Halloween brought a suprise for me, my kids were satisfied with going around the block and being done. I could not believe it.

November- Came and went, for some reason its not sticking out in my mind as anything to important. Thanksgiving was good, we enjoyed the day together. why oh why havent I been better at keeping up with this darn thing, my memory isnt what it used to be!!!

December- Once again we were spoiled, far more then we deserve I am sure. Vernon also had his 28th birthday. To celebrate he decided to re enlist in the Navy for another 4 years! Way go to honey we are so proud of you and all that you do for our country.



January- We had a special visit from Grandpa Ed and Grandma Melanie, I know I have the pictures around here and will try to get them added when I am on the other computer. We also had a special visit from Grandma Amy. Kaden got put into school and is doing AWESOME. I LOVE LOVE LOVE the education part of it. But I hate the bus schedule and will get getting it fixed it is not ok for my child to be on a bus for 2 hours everyday after school. But we have contacted the right people and they are working on fixing it. Hopefully by next wed/thurs they will have it all fixed. they are having a special meeting to try and figure it out. It not I will keep calling and going higher until it is fixed. We also had another special birthday, Dalton turned 2!!!! He is such a sweet little guy, when I am upset he will come over and ask me whats wrong and kiss me until I smile. He is so smart and amazed the people in Kadens IEP. He speaks in full sentences and for the most part is understandable. He is full of spunk and keeps me on my toes. If he hears a new work he has to try it out. Again I am truly blessed. I can not imagine my life without my four amazing beautiful children! Life is good. For better or worse we have each other and I wouldnt want it any other way.




So like I said I am going to really try to do better with this, through the laughter and tears. From happiness to sadness I need to store and share it all. Until next time.
Carolyn